A Little Longer...

Dear Baby,

A few days ago I was having such a hard day. I knew that another month was going to go by without me becoming a mother. Days like that are hard. More then just hard...they are heartbreaking. I can't explain how it feels to know that yet again, we were not successful in creating you. To know that we will feel empty at least one more long month.

I happened to flip to a page in a magazine with this quote:

"Sometimes it seems as if other people have all the luck-like somehow they've got what it takes to make dreams happen, and you don't. But you have the very same magic they have: hope and hard work! Whatever you want in life can happen. Some dreams just take a little longer to unfold than others, that's all!"

So, sweet one, I picked up the pieces and put them back together. I am going forth with hope and strength and faith. I am praying that this dream only takes a little longer. I am consciencely making the effort to keep my thoughts positive (some days that is easier said then done). I love you already.

Love,
Mommy

Words of Wisdom

Dear Baby,

Okay, so they aren't my words. I am going to be one of those annoying people that posts lyrics to a song. Please forgive me. This song just is so beyond beautiful in both its melody and lyrics. It speaks to my heart and I hope one day it will speak to yours.

For the Children
By: John Mellencamp

I wish I could give you an answer
As to when life really begins
I wish I could tell you where we went
When our days here come to an end
Wish I could see the future
The same way I see the past
Wish I could draw a conclusion
Why nothing here seems to last

I can't even make a guess
Or an uneducated thought
All I can do here is my best
And be thankful for what we've got

Why do so many suffer?
Oppressed to the end of time
Why does freedom move so slowly?
Unable to speak it's mind
Some say it's a circle
Others think we live on the wing
Why are promises broken
And some think life don't mean a thing

I can't even make a guess
Or an uneducated thought
All I can do here is my best
And be thankful for what we've got

I hope you can be a child of life
With big dreams for everyone
And know that dying's as natural as birth
And our troubles here they don't last long
I have worried about many things
Most of which did not come to pass
Hope you find someone to give you love
And that your love will last

I can't even make a guess
Or an uneducated thought
All I can do here is my best
And be thankful for what we've got
We've got

I do hope so many of these things for you already. I hope that you are a dreamer like me. I hope you have determination and drive like your Daddy. I hope you find love in friends as well as with a life partner one day. I hope you are always thankful for the blessings in your life. I think John Mellencamp says it so well. So there it is Baby, some of my many wishes for you. Remember, I love you already.

Love,
Mommy

Dreaming of you...

Dear Baby,

I haven't met you yet. In fact, you don't exist at all except for in my heart. I don't know if you're a boy or a girl. I don't know if you have red hair or brown. I don't know if you have brown eyes or hazel. But I do know I love you. That's right, I love you already. We've been praying for you for over two years now. And we will continue to pray for you until the moment we are holding you in our arms. We are not the only ones praying for you either. There are people praying for you that we haven't even met in real life. I'm going to continue to write to you. And one day, hopefully, you will read these letters and now just how much you were wanted and loved before you even existed.

Love,
Mommy