Pink or Blue?

Dear Baby,

I always knew that I would have to find out what I was having once I got pregnant. I knew I'd want to buy pink dresses or little boy sneakers and decorate the room in pink or blue. I'd just HAVE to know!

After we had been trying for about a year I started thinking about how much fun it would be to be surprised by your gender (a very new idea for me). I found the cow nursery that I love so much and am already buying stuff for that was gender neutral. I imagined the moment you are born and I hear "It's a boy!" or "It's a girl!" It was a fun moment to dream about. I thought about how short those nine months really are. Now, nine months sounds even shorter. After trying for and dreaming about you for over two years so far, I know that those nine months will just breeze by! Your daddy and I had talked about how we would want to know. He 100% agreed with me that he would want to know. I didn't tell him I'd been thinking about not finding out your gender. Then an amazing thing happened. One day we were riding in the car and your daddy said, "I think it would be fun to not know! That would be such a big surprise!" I was ecstatic.

So, the plan is to be surprised. To wonder and dream the whole nine months that you are growing inside me if you are a girl or a boy. To decorate the nursery in a gender neutral theme and buy mostly gender neutral stuff until you are born. To come up with a boy name and a girl name. I hope we don't cave once I'm actually pregnant and find out. It would be like peeking into a present before Christmas, which I have NEVER done by the way. I always loved the surprise and never wanted to know what I was getting ahead of time and didn't understand when friends would snoop before Christmas. So I hope I can keep the present closed, with bow in tact!

To be honest, in the beginning I REALLY wanted a little girl. I only have a sister and all girl cousins. I just felt like I wouldn't know what to do with a boy. Plus, I loved the idea of dressing a little girl up and having a future shopping and pedicure buddy. As time has gone on though, I think that a boy would be a lot of fun too. After all, what little boy wouldn't love to have a firefighter as a Daddy? After three years of teaching, I have more of an appreciation and understanding for little boys. Also, your Grandpa (or whatever you will call him, haha) only had girls, so I'm sure he would LOVE a grandson to play with. I am now very comfortable with the idea of having a son or a daughter. Which makes the surprise idea even more fun. It's like opening a present that you know you are going to love no matter what it is! Have I mentioned I already love you? ;)

Love,
Mommy